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2004-12-20 - 9:01 a.m.

Speaking of Jealousy


I wonder if I was very close to being in love with Daniel before? Well, actually, I'm sure I must have been, but here, this is why I'm saying: I didn't feel anyone was good enough for him. Now I still don't feel I'm good enough for him, but that doesn't stop me from being very posessive of him. I'm always thinking: He's mine! My baby! My Daniel! I swear, you would think he was the One Ring! Only, he's very good, and the One Ring is, of course, very bad. I've always been like this. It's one way I know I'm actually in love with a person. I feel bad about it, but then, it's not as though I wouldn't be happy for him if he ended up with someone else, I mean, for now, what choice do I have? Still, even if I could be with him, and he chose someone else, I'd still be happy for him, but that wouldn't stop me from feeling jealous of the chick who gets him, but first and foremost, regardless of my jealousy, I want him to be happy. Of course, I think he'd be happiest with me, but if that turned out not to be true, I suppose I could deal with it.

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