Listening to: "Shame" from matchbox twenty
Thingking: So, what do I do now?
Feeling: Somewhat hopeless
29/07/2007 - 2:46 p.m.
Dealing
Right. Well, now I'm back to believing Daniel is real, but I'm also back to being frustrated that I can't be with him until I die. At least when I didn't believe he was real I could just enjoy loving this literally unreal (so I tried to tell myself) figure, knowing it wouldn't matter anymore once I was dead, but it didn't really help. God, I do need help, seriously. I think I scare people. I don't know what to do. I need to just think about the positive aspects of this. I so just need to learn to deal with the wait.
Getting - Better
